in general, its only been half a day here and i love it. i can go to the student center and just chill by myself without looking stupid. and i met people from back home - the bay area, and they seem chill, i just havent seen them since orientation haha. but i hope theyll accept me lmfao. damn but yea its so relaxing and i have nothing to do but study until 230. and today i have so much time to do everything i need to do plus breaks. thats what i like cause i cant just do work work consecutively.
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but when nanay left i didnt want to cry in front of her cause she was already crying and i didnt want her to cry more. were not an emotional family, im the only one who shows emotion and for nanay to cry like that and me to not want to was straight up weird!!! and lolo too he teared when i left. i definitely got distracted for a good hour and half just right now. hahaha but yea getting humiliated is okay for me cause i know how to make the best of it hahahah like i know how to make it into a laugh. but it does make you feel pretty stupid when you humiliate yourself. its awkward and feels weird. idk. its whatever..