im done

I WISH I WAS SMART. everything would be easier. just a little bit easier. not saying that i want it to be easy im just asking for some kind of book smart. i want bigger vocabulary, expanded. i want to be able to make up things on a piece of paper coming out from my head like its nothing. why do i have to be so stupid. i wish i had money and went to private school and had one on one tutoring and had all the clothes i wanted so i can have a higher self esteem and have a personal trainer so i can feel better about my body. i wish i had money to buy better food for myself. i wish i had money for my mom because she deserves it. i wish i didnt have so much presssure to do really well in school. i wish i just got everything handed to me like it was nothing. i wish people took me seriously in times. i shouldnt take life too seriously. i wish i knew how to study, i wish i knew how to keep reading a good book. i wish i was interested in homework, i wish i had resistance from getting easily distracted i wish i wasnt me right now i wish i was a rich white kid who knew how to party hard and be smart cause i woulda went to a private school and got everything i wanted because my parents would have more opportunities in jobs because they're successful white people