wooo negga lost by won cuz ez always gotta be hella good. haha
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me-i aired the ball, missed a free throw, rimmed a shot, got blocked, and not play 4th quarter. that was the slap on the face sayin i need to step the filangees up. i mean i was open on top for a good moment but the other player just got the ball more than me. i cant believe that i was getting so tired in the beginning i need to stop eating! but iknow i shouldnt dread on this game. sure i lookd like i know what i was doin but i didnt contribute to the outcome of the score! 3 points negggga!? wtf im hella mad i just need to work harder in gettin the ball more. i look so stupid makin all my shots at warmups and then air that shit and rim it in the game! thats why i get so mad at myself becuz i know i shoulda made that shot but for some reason i dont think about makin it or confident in makn it i just feel like everytime i release i BLANK OUT.
maybe its the fact that im actually trusted to be given the ball and use it. i think G traumatized me cuz everytime i get a ball i have to pass it right back and wheenever somebody shoots it from there its always something wrong, that you had an open lane why couldnt you just take it to the hoop? or that somebody else was open, or that it wasnt your range, or that you havent been scorin the past time so why bother? maybe it is becuz of that.
like having the privilege to shoot and not get yelled at is different from what i was taught. you shoot, you get yelled at. maybe thats it!!! ok from now on, i have to get a feel of the ball and shoot with the right amount of force to make the side shot basket. and forget the fact that im tired as fuck and i still need my knees to shoot the right shot and make it! i dont know why i always gotta write these things down just makes me feel bad that i fuckin suckd at the game so i know i dont wantt to feel the same way again so i dont make these mistakes to come back and talk shit about myself being all emo and shit. haha but freal i cant be playin like i got a stick up my ass and not finishing cuz im a senior and no way in hell am i gna let someone slower than me and have all these lucky ass shots come up and put me on ther bench ever again in the 4th quarter. yea you look good, but how the fuck is that gna make you win a game. i need more confidence, focus more, and not care how i look out there. suck it the fuck up. -j9