i've been lacking this and it kills me to look at past oppurtunities to be hella close to people only if i believed in who i really am. i love to be free-spirited but i noticed i limit myself in looking stupid all the time so that is my goal from now on, always try to be myself in front of the critics and see what they want out of me. even in my art i mean i know im not that good but if i dont believe in my own stuff what makes me want to be better right? -j9