its depressing! AHHHH

ugthhhh! whenever i play hella bad, i get hella down on myself and it makes me turn into a sorry and pathetic person liikin hella like anthony randolph whenever he makes a mistake and miss shots and stuff, i let it get in my head hella badly that i need someone to cure me from it. it disastorous!!!!!!! someone teach me how to shake it offffff! please i need to take lessons on how to not let things get in my head so badly. i turn into a whole other person like foreal i cant even look at someone or smile when someone says smile, i become pathetic like fuck the world, dont talk to me sorta person. i hate it when i turn into a loser, its totally opposite of how i really am. playing hella bad and westmoor high school turns me into a pathetic loser, so thats why im trying to get out of that part of my life. i gots tah work harder, run faster, play stronger, and leave westmoor.